It's me, again.....

I'm back and refuse to give up on myself. I must say last week I did not get to go to the gym at all!!! I had cake order's every single day! This is alot for me being that I do it out of my house and do it alone. I also have to manage a family (homework, dinner, etc) I however do not want to continue to make excuses. I will be in the gym tonight regardless of how busy my day is. I must day that I do need some help staying motivated. I tend to find myself falling off in what I'm eating. How do I get my mind frame back in routine..... Ughh I feel lost and fed up but know that I need to get back on TRACK!!!! Any advice would be greatly appreciated.
Good News: I have not gained any weight. Thank god! But nor have I lost any either. :(

I've missed my fellow bloggers.

So I fell off the wagon just a bit. But I refuse to stay down. I've hopped back up and jumped back into it. I missed a few gym day's last week but I started again today and refuse to miss again like I did. I was ashamed at first but I'm over that feeling. I missed Friday's weigh in cause I knew I probably did not lose anything. I weighed myself today and am actually greatful that even though there was no weight loss last week at least I didn't gain. :0)
I know its normal and I'm just more motivated to prove to myself that I can do this. I'm not weak and I can achieve this goal! I was looking through poems and one stood out so I thought I'd share it. Well hope all of you guy's are still doing great on your weight loss journeys. I will be catching up on all of your blogs. Sorry for disappearing. Have a great night and I'll catch up with you guy's again tomorrow. :::Pinky Promise:::

Today's Dreams Are
Tomorrow's Successes
Don't be afraid of high hopes
or plans that seem to be out of reach.
Life is meant to be experienced,
and every situation allows for
Motivation is a positive starting point,
and action places you on a forward path.
A dream is a blueprint
of a goal not yet achieved;
the only difference between the two
is the effort involved in attaining
what you hope to accomplish.
Let your mind and heart urge you on;
allow the power of your will
to lead you to your destination.
Don't count the steps ahead;
just add up the total
of steps already covered,
and multiply it by
faith, confidence, and endurance.
Always remember that
for those who persist,
today's dreams are transformed
into tomorrow's successes.
~ Kelly D. Caron ~
 

I must admit... Horrible

I know when I'm doing good I'm so excited to write about and tell all.
Well this weekend sucked ass. I did horrible. I guess my loss threw me off. No idea why cause I know it's still a loss and I need to be happy about it. I was just totally off track with my diet this weekend. Don' t get me wrong it's not like I stuffed my face, but my decisions were just horrible. Chicken Penne over a Chicken salad! Horrible I say. I will be back at the good habits tomorrow though. I must tell you I feel nothing but guilt and FAT from eating that way. At least when I do eat good it also makes me feel great and motivates me to do better! Well just thought I'd update you guy's. Talk to you tomorrow.
Oh and Allan you never told me who you worked for?

Dude Wtf ?!?!

Okay so I was excited all week for today's weigh in. I went to the gym everyday this week except for Monday. I even went Saturday and Sunday for the first time! My menu has been oatmeal for breakfast, veggie patty or tuna on a sandwich thin for lunch, Fiber one bar for snack, and for dinner everyday this week except for Monday, I've had a salad!!! When I stepped on the scale this morning my result was: 1.5 pounds down. REALLY DUDE??? I was in utter shock. I had to get off and step back on the scale like 2 times more. Nope, it wasn't budging on bit! So yeah really 1.5 pounds down and worked extra hard this week. I have no idea.....

So just thought I'd show you guy's the end result:

Ha ha ha!!! Just Kidding.

I'm on Fireee...

I totally forgot to post last night being that I posted MY Story! (New Tab) Well, all has been well. I have been eating great this week. Oatmeal for breakfast, Veggie patty on a sandwich thin for lunch, Salad for dinner, and a Fiber One bar for snack. Oh and don't let me forget water, water, water!!!!  I have been to the gym everyday so far and have done my 3 miles on the treadmill everyday. So I feel pretty good. I am hoping for a bigger weight loss this week and actually can't wait to weigh in tomorrow. :0) 

Good news! I'm buying a treadmill today. So now I can work out during the day at the gym and at night on the treadmill. Welll.... that's the plan. I must say I have my elliptical and still can't really use it. It hurts like hell!!! My knee's burn!!!!!!! I have no idea why the pain is bad. The only ONE time I did good is when I was watching the Biggest Loser.

So yesterday I got around to finally making some weight loss rewards for myself. I'm pretty excited about that. It gives me something to look forward too! Of course my hubby has no idea about them...lol lol lol

Exposed!

So yesterday was a complete flop on my gym plans. Since Des actually had off from school because of Columbus Day we ended up spending the day together :) . I felt bad having to drag her to the gym with me on her day off. Plus, it was absolutely gorgeous outside! We ended up going pumpkin picking and brought along my niece. It turned out to be a great day. And even though I didn't make it to work out, I did still watch what I ate. :o)

On another note: I completely exposed myself lastnight. Shame on you, not in that way you freak! lol

I exposed my weight loss journey to my friends on facebook. I was embarrassed at first to the thought of them reading my blog and seeing what my starting weight was. But what the hell, I know that doing what I did will give me more motivation to never go backwards on this journey and continue to move forward! Just a little while ago I was also reading a blog post that made me realize what I did by exposing myself to other's was the right move. I can not stay in my comfort zone!! I haven't learned yet how to link a post since I am still kind of new to the blogging world so I copied and pasted it. It is as follows from http://www.jackfit.blogspot.com/

Expose Yourself

We all… each of us… have a comfort zone.

We think it’s where we’re safe, but the truth of the matter is that it’s our favorite hiding spot.

It’s where we retreat to when the going gets tough, where we fall back to when we feel most threatened.

I guess that what makes Michelle at Eating Journey’s “Exposed” series so incredibly remarkable to me:  it asks folks not just to peek their heads out the door of their own personal hidey-holes, but to tear down the walls all around them.

A healthy percentage of weight-loss bloggers can’t (or won’t) show themselves on their sites. Some can’t even bring themselves to put their weight on their blog.

I wouldn’t show my ugly mug for the longest time, so I understand the pressure that keeps some wanting to stay completely anonymous.

But here’s what I’d say to you:  come out and play.

Blur your face if you feel you must, but take that next step and put a picture on your struggle.

It’ll help readers more solidly connect to your story, add a whole new level of accountability and show yourself (and the world) that you have nothing to hide.

1 slice isn't so bad, is it?

Another great weekend has passed. Can you believe I finally did it and went to the gym on Saturday and Sunday! I'm pretty excited about that. Yesterday I did have to actually force myself to go. It also didn't help at all that my husband wanted me to just stay home and relax with him. I felt horrible for leaving him but once I was there on that treadmill I felt awesome! A bit of self accomplishment. :0)
My food choices this weekend were pretty good I must say besides Friday. Friday's in my house are Pizza Friday's as Destiny (my step-daughter) say's. So we did order pizza. Buttttt instead of ordering a whole pie like we usually do, I just ordered what I knew they were going to eat and 1 slice for myself. I must say I always had to eat at least 2 slices to get full and with that 1 slice I ate I was extremely satisfied. Saturday for dinner my husband wanted to Chinese food. I ordered myself steamed chicken with garlic sauce, and yesterday for dinner I ate a Greek salad with grilled chicken. As you can see I don't cook on the weekend's. Lmao! Those are my day's off being that I cook all week.

Anywho.... I must say Thank you to Polar for a wonderful award.

So with this award I must tell you 7 thing's about myself :

1. My favorite time of the year is Christmas.

2. I love the cold weather rather than the hot weather. (this might change due to drastic weight loss) lol :o)

3. I am a self taught cake decorator.

4. I yearn for the day to have a child of my own.

5. I love NYC!!! If I was a single woman that's where I would be living.

6. I am of Puerto Rican descent but have never been to Puerto Rico and do not speak spanish.

7. I have a serious earring addiction!!!!!!!!!!!!

So today I am off to the gym, again. Then off to enjoy the lovely sunny day that it is...

I'll post again later this evening!

:0)

Freakin Fantabolous!!!

So I weighed in again this morning just like the last 3 Friday morning's, and woo-hoooo I feel freaking fantabolous! Another 3.5lb's gone! I'm so happy this is actually working. I have never felt greater. It's the most awesomest feeling to know that I'm doing this all by myself, alone, absolutely no help and I'm doing it!!!! Polar's mom I'll be right along with you next summer in our slinky bikini's, lmao! Anyhow I'm baking away like a usual Friday morning. Have a big order that's due tomorrow so that's what my Friday night is looking like.  As soon as I'm done baking I gotta run my big butt to the gym. I'll talk to you guy's later!

Still at it!

So yes, I have been gone for a few day's. I do apologize to my follower's. However even though I haven't posted anything I am still at it and going strong! I have been getting better and better and watching what I eat. I think about everything before putting it in my mouth. Yes Everything! LMAOOOO!!!
I did miss working out Monday & Tuesday however I doubled up yesterday and today at the gym. Tomorrow is my weigh in and I must say I cant wait to see the number. Whatever it is I will be happy with it (as long as it's dropping). I think it's time for me to start thinking about some weight loss goals and rewards so I have something to look forward to as I lose. Any idea's?
I was thinking I may have to take up Alan's challenge to keep up with these post everyday. Still thinking about it though ;-)
Well I'm going to catch up on reading your blog's. I'll post again tomorrow. Have a goodnight all!!!

I wear short short's! Okay, Well not yet :0)

I was so looking forward to today for my weigh in. Even though my goal of 5lbs wasn't  met I am still happy with my result's! 3 more lbs to say goodbye to.. Forever! I wasn't to thrilled at first but when I started to think of thing's that weigh 3lbs, I am supa dee dupa excited bitchezzzzz! lmaooo!!!!

This healthy eating is not that bad after all, and may I say more than worth it!!! I went to the gym today and did my 3 miles. I had some company so the time flew by while we were there. I left feeling so energized and focused. Knowing that I didn't miss one day this week of working out makes me even more motivated to get my ass back there tomorrow! This weekend will be my 1st weekend going to the gym. I'm hoping it's not that crowded. I usually go at 12:00 during the week so it's so empty. I love it that way, no one staring and I can sweat as much as I want! lol
Does anyone do Zumba? If so, how do you like it?? I sooo wanna buy the dvd's and start doing that at home every evening.

Ahhh...I can't wait till next summer when I can wear short shorts, tank tops, and a cute bathing suit I actually love!!!

That bathing suit gives me inspiration! I can do it! I will be there one day!

Talk to you later guys. xoxo

 

Chicken & Salad can it get any better?

Okay, so yes that was a little sarcastic. lol. Did my run today and woohoo I feel great! I can already start to tell the difference even though it's just 8.5 lbs lost so far. I'm guessing I have lost inches along with that. I was able to fit into a pair of capri's today that I haven't been able to get up passed my hips all summer. I must say it felt awesome! 
Me and my little family were invited to eat dinner at my titi' Jo's house tonight. I am determined to eat right while I am there. Thanks to Vanessa!!! I can do it! I know she is making baked chicken so I will have 1 piece with salad. No extra side!!!
Talk to you guy's later
xoxoxoxo

Just like a damn crack feen....

So even though I haven't blogged for a few day's I wanted to let you guy's know I have been doing great! I have been portioning everything and eating very healthy and of course only drinking water!! Yummmmm! lmaoo.... I have been going to the gym and each time I'm there I do 3miles on the treadmill and some of the circuit machines. I actually am looking to my weigh in this week. I know I am going to do much better than last week.
I noticed tonight that food is really like a drug. My husband was eating some snacks in bed and I felt like I couldn't even stay in the same room. I felt like I was going crazy like I just had to have some!!! I felt like a total crack feen!!! So instead I got up, got myself a couple of grapes, and my water bottle and stayed out of the room till he was done. lmao.... It's crazy realizing this!
So I don't think I have mentioned my little side gig. I am a self employed cake decorator! Honestly it is a little hard at times to stay in control when you have all these goodies around but I think I've overcome that temptation being that I see cake every damn week. lol. Feel free to check out what I do: http://www.jazestycakes.weebly.com/
Anyhow, I'm going to call it a night. Sweet Dreams everyone! xoxo

My Ass meet's Treadmill :0) Once again.....

I must confess! Since Thursday evening I have let loose on my healthy eating. I have eaten shit that I shouldn't of! It was just one of those party weekend's plus no control.

Although all the bad food I did still weigh in on Friday. I only lost a 1/2 of lb. being that my eating was not up to par. I must say I feel gross now. I cant wait to get my Ass (literally) back in the gym and on the treadmill!!!

 (Don't you just love it Bethany!!!!)

I have to stick with writing a post everyday so I remain focused! I did treat myself to a brand new mp3 player yesterday, so I'm pretty excited about using it for the 1st time. My video Ipod that I have is just way to bulky. I'm in love with this little guy! He's a little bit smaller than my pinkie and holds over 2,000 songs!!! How awesome is that!

Soooo I have a new goal to try to lose at the least 15lbs by Oct. 30th. My sister is thinking about having a Halloween party, and needless to say I need to try to fit my Ass (again..literally) into something sexy! Well I am off to the gym now. I will definitely post again this evening.

Breakfast: Oatmeal, 1/2 of a Banana & Water

Oh Zeppole, how I just love you.

So I must admit to you guy's. Yesterday was a failure. I did not go to the gym nor go on my elliptical lastnight. I helped my sister during the day clean out her garage. Then yesterday evening was literally hell! So I had no energy or will-power to do anything! And as I've told you guy's before I am an emotional eater. So I kind of failed with eating too. I ate a sandwich before I went to bed. :-(
Amongst all that shitty bad news, I think I should tell you I did do ONE thing good! While I was at my sister's she ordered Pizza, Garlic knots, and my ALL TIME FAVORITE SWEET EVERRRRR Zeppoles. I'd pass over any food for a zeppole! So my therapy for it was to just take a picture and walk away. Hahahaha!!!!

By the way, I didn't have pizza, I only had 1 garlic knot and No Zeppoles!

Well this morning is a new day! I am going to work twice as hard today at the gym being that I was a slacker yesterday. I will update you guy's later. Thanks for the support! xoxox

-Tamika

Yeeee-Hawwwwwww!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh my goodness, oh my goodness, oh my goodness! I can not believe I did it!!!! Yeeee-Hawwwwww!!Yippeeeeeeee!!!! Hoo-rayyyyy!!!!!!!!
Guess I should clue you in to what I'm talking about. Right? lol. I bought an elliptical about a month ago. I got on the machine to start working out and could barely do 5 minutes. My knees were burning me and I just could not do it. I tried again, and the same thing happened. Needless to say it has just been sitting in my room for the last month and became my new clothes hanger. Well..... today I told myself I'm going to give it another shot. Being that I have been going to the gym for a week now, I think I can... I think I can.......
Sooooo the good news is I DID IT!!!! I was able to do 40 minutes which was 5miles. It felt sooo freaking good! I was dripping sweat by the end of it. This is definitely a new beginning. I'm siked!!! :0)
I must admit I did cheat today with my dinner :-( I wanted to just have a grilled chicken salad but I ended up having that and also a cup of white rice with beans. I just couldn't resist it! I did feel so horrible afterwards though. I must say it was my emotional eating that I know got the best of me. Destiny who is my 8yr. old stepdaughter stressed me out today!!! First day in a long time cause she has been pretty good!
Overall I feel like today was a great day and look forward to another one tomorrow.
Have a goodnight all!
xoxo,
Tamika

Gym Bound :0)

Off to the gym I go!!! Aiming for a brisk 3.5 mile walk on the treadmill today. Hope I can make it!
:0)

Just ohhhh-soooo Motivated!

WooHooo I feel great!!! Extremely, extremely, motivated and am hoping that this motivation continues throughout my weight loss journey. Which we all know most likely will not happen. That's why I am hoping this blog will help me out with support from others who are on the same journey!

All my life I was pretty average in weight... maybe with a few extra pounds, but nothing to really complain about. Although, I was always unhappy and wanted to lose wait. Since I have been married, which is 4 year's now I have put on approximately 75lbs. You can say it "WOW, that's alot"!!! I honestly think it's all from just being beyond comfortable with my hubby (his eating habit's are not the best either).  No matter how much weight I've put on, he still says "I look great and he loves me just the way I am". But I have finally come to grips with the fact that "I" am not happy with my weight gain and MUST to do something about it! I refuse to live my life unhappy with myself and always hiding behind my black clothing. I can't wear half the thing's I'd love too, and hate that I just have to be satisfied with whatever fit's. So with all that said, I am soooo ready to start shedding pounds and start a new happy healthy life. My first week of working out and watching what I ate was last week. I must say I did pretty good and am proud of myself. I barely cheated and lost a total of 8lbs!!!! That must be why I feel so motivated this week to continue working on my goal.

I'm not following a certain diet, but I will be eating way more healthier food's and portioning the not so healthy ones. I will make it a "MUST" to go to the gym everyday!!! I once read somewhere: "I eat everyday so I must work out everyday". I have never forgotten that quote and just oh so love it, so that's what I am going to TRY to do!

Well I must bring this post to an end because It's time to take my Destiny to dance class. I look forward to this journey and new follower's (hopefully) to lend me a hand.

-Tamika